Tuesday, 11 August 2020

Unless Healed...CRF...pt 5

CRF = Cutting Room Floor!
The Hearing; the more she hates and speaks against the family the mòre the ones that have made the billionaire and billions will not pay out?
Evenly?
But within me feels a trap of bitterness and hate to try and control my own fate away from them rising around me to try and put a negative stamp upon ny identity to feel forced to need their demise?
I don't feel like i like that!
It feels wrong to me to live with the need to crush somebody!
Very wrong because it will cause more me and them pain!
But it feels like im being pulled back again and again to  this need for my ongoing attention?
It feels like someone has a need for me to turn around or away from the life I have created just to face off with them as enemies in deep and desperate need of attention! Someone very sick made alot of money it would seem then played it all out again right back to the poverty of where abuses first began? If that being me? Its very unfortunate!
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If i may I pray today to find everything brand new and unfamiliar to me amid writings about incest and the need and contact of continually stupified abusers! Whilst  recognising that  I do not feel I never have had the need for any of them and whatever they intend to achieve by as much as they can destroy!
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In the name of the Father Son and Holy Ghost!
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Amen!
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In Gods Name Alone!
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Natural Flowism!
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A Freedom of Being!
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Amen!
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Unless Healed....CRF....pt 4

CRF=Cutting Room Floor!


Where any Law officials are unwilling to recognise incest and its continuum and how the personality of others continue to prolong  the suffering of their survivors may we who so choose be spared their hatred and false concern which is continually perpetuated around us both deliberately and otherwise to force us who feel affected into an enforced obedience to the cruel forces of need greed and hatred by deed?
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In Gods Name Only!
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Enough!
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Unless Healed...CRF...pt 3

CRF= CUTTING ROOM FLOOR

What feels like it should have been healed a long time ago by now all seems rolled into possible connection to the  continuum of being stalked which has raised and brought forward and into play the horrible memories of incest some how?

Motherhood is great!
But not without its twists and turns
For those of us who survived sexual incest we inadvertently passed on emotional incest without even knowing or in some cases recongnising that is exactly what we had done. Not deliberately or sexually!

Stubborness and Definiance falsley appear to protect. Protected you as the parent as you fought your own siblings/guardians/carers or parents not to issue the abuses they experienced upon you. But that same stubbornness and obstinance turned right round and re-presented itself to you once you became a parent who tried to undo what your parents/abuser did to you before you were the parent trying to undo the very cruelty and abuse which was forced onto you.

Mind boggles as perceptions become skewered because that is not the same thing you were trying to do as a parent because of what had been done to you! But few know how to pay enough attention to the injuries in the brain or to the brain which cause that which makes the continuums of incest violence and emotional distresses and as a result cruelty continually possible!
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In Gods Name Alone!
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Amen!
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Praying for Divine Intervention from the most high! This is all I can say ask for it right now!
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Amen!
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For the sake of all our happinesses and Freedoms!
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Amen!
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Enough!
Amen!
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Bless & Freedom!
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Unless Healed...CRF...pt 2

CRF=CUTTING ROOM FLOOR

Incest has away of seeping into every area of your life, mind, and emotions. Personality disorders attached to it prolongs the suffering of others which flows out to the wider community. And if accepted erodes and changes society in general. Unannounced causing unseen unexpectedly animosity and inexplicable acts of hatred and ongoing unhealable pain. Incest has a footprint. Incest has a very big foot print which effects the economy lifestyle choices the atmosphere in very subtle ways leaving little trace and realisation of how its foot print has erased and projected life in all the wrong and right places, spaces, and in the body and minds of each generation and each race. It has left present an energy of confusion in society and confusion in the minds of many it has left and is leaving so much confusion in the minds of those trying to strive and achieve better than from whence they came!
Leaving many of us with misperceptions about status and wealth and in pain at having to re-live the hurt and pain of the abuse over and over again! Though even that can be healed by paying attention to where is has damage or injured the brain that way you can quite possibly switch off the constant repeated memories and pain!
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In Gods Name Alone
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Amen!
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Unless Healed..CRF....pt 1

CRF=Cutting Room Floor=Random Writings & Notes ÷ By No Order × By Feelings+Observation -♧◇♡♤■□●☆!

I am so Thankfully Gratefully Blessed to Repent and Surrender to the Forgiveness Purpose and Power Life is...

THE THROW DOWN...
This is about - What I feel and whst things people and circumstances feel like to me
These are random notes they may or may not relate to a truth!

...incapacity relating directly to time management. 

A lack of empathy and intrusion into my life because of a public person's persona or public life?

Dreading. Hating having to face or confront the sadistic plans or behaviour of a stranger who is stalking me in an unknown manner? Or in a style and manner akin to what is known in society as Press instrusion which in reference to Law may well be able to actually be seen as criminal offence?

The fact words almost fail me to express a knowing feeling that other people have deliberately made me and my daughter distraught and distressed and even delibrately hated and at certain times poor just so they can be rich and build their brands off the back our distress?
Possibly off the back of the incest violence and abuse I/we have been forced to suffer in our lives! Within that in my bid for us both to heal and know and heal in truth I realise I may be viewed as capitolising allbeit my own pain for gain. Even though initially it was all I could do to break free of a stalker and abusers restraints!

The fact the evidence of antics have become more obvious and true. Does is it really a link to incest and if so where or how will i ever find if necessary concrete the unequivocal truth, if needed?

A womans name was predicted in a reading with a pyschic a name which begins with a B?  


About to go to the store dreading the queues which will be already filled and waiting for my "appearance" as the compressing and oppression of a helicopter continues? Light aircraft pilot has already flown over!


I have been living in internal turmoil conflict and confusion about who and what to let go! It can feel and even appear to others (narcissists, sadists, mysognists)  like glee to be free and feel relieved having made the right decision to get up and out and away from their deeds! 

I have literally gratefully woken up today feeling air crushed to my chest in false wonder hating past regergating memories. 

As i can see pre see them now waiting to confront me!

Hated by the jealously or a false appearance of some kind ingrained in the search of those who seek to impress aristocrasy hound me mistakenly because I look like someone else for some reason which they cannot even articulate.

 I dont know how to trust...that I can ask life to be kept away from anyone incestuous rich or poor old middle class or young?

Dear God the Father and Mother may I finally be free of anyone who maybe chasing me because they are practising incest or are hiding something else in their current or ongoing practice sexual offences or unrest which is nothing to do with me!
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In Gods Name Alone!
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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I am Grateful!
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Enough!
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Sunday, 9 August 2020

Unless Healed....

As she sat watching and listening to a black women eloquently describe her pain and struggle

She searched to find the equivalent said using the same terms about race in a white women and could not find a peace said with the same sincerity. Not because it isn't there but just because she couldn't find it as easily!

It conjured up so many questions it is not like she had never experienced racism. Except it felt like it was from both white a black equally at times!

I knew she had said to herself she is just so fed up. She is emersed even though several generations removed in both sides of the story and prospective....so is this investigation being down or passed onto her from her Great Grand Father or Fathers and Mothers?

Why can she not hear it so easily and understandably from a white women?

Why can't she say anything without their being so much fear and initidation about what had been in the form of brutal cruel racism yet today so many of us are united in racism from racist as racist divided by racism because of the way we speak about race or feel about white women?!

Sick!
Sick of what looks like their attempts at the appearance of control and natural gravitation toward a belief system of supremact dominace and the right of entitlement to appear better than even the black man they lay their head down with yet it turns out something in their structure gives them that percentage above which makes them more likely to stalk someone else-considering it is supposed to be a crime to stalk someone else!

Is it in the Men or is there a statistic that show white men fell gullible to holding up traditionalism faster the black men? Or is that the other way round?

Is it the left over unspoken or hardly ever high-lighted fact and effects of slavery when the white man would put the white women on a rancid pedal stool (even though it wouldn't appear rancid) whilst the white man went out and found a black women to rape or truly fall in love with?

Have white women lived in forms of behavioural shackles ever since?

Force through every generation to out do and do more and more to prove a black women worthless because of the historic abandonment for the sake of sex addiction, rape, or love?

WITHOUT EMPATHY

It gets sickening and tiring when you just cannot be
And just be comfortable 
It is hard enough in general society overcoming the similations of generation upon generations of incest and all the ongoing bahavioural patterns that is allowed to turn into culture and tradition that creates across generations and every race!
But to then have to continually live through the ongoing affects of slavery in this very modern day embroiled in the modernisation of sex addiction and the sleight and stealth of paedaphila as it becomes so stylised to the point it is hardly recognised as a form of stalking behaviour goes beyond the goat!
It is enough to be done with the ongoing sexual intimidation some white females appear to want another to feel

Since they-white women or whitish looking women appear to have been seen as the most sexually  desirable and preferred in the world of the anointed does it mean they have been appointed to put a stop to what this sexual desire and profit has been?

Is that a weakness pending to be a strength to not be taken for granted as sex objects?

WITHOUT  FRIENDSHIP

Its gone past the sell by date to keep fight against the one in the similar mind!

That does not mean hand in hand or linked arms because that can also be just another sexually deviant alibi!

But so many of us are just sick and tired of the unecessarily stupid and the high tide and tithe profits of the sex abuse industries remarketing!

Which part of the brain is so defunction this situation still has coping with it over and over again?

And is it just a mixed race thing?
When for once in our lives we just want to hear it easy?

And not be in this constant division about our Mothers and their history or Our Fathers and their history?

And is really about race at all since it does not actual exist or is it about the sexual global profit race?

TUiD's Cutting Room Floor!


In the Cutting Room Floor!
Body parts speaks
They feedback to the brain
Because the Brain gave the body parts the command in the first place!


Yet again, it has been Variation of a theme of faces situated in the frankly spoken toilet visits!
There has also been Motorcyclist who project their energy onto the foreheads of others forcing them to touch the area the motorcyclist has stares at creating the look of  a false looking salute as the unwanted feeling of projection is brushed off!


 
The following works are carried out under the theme of: the most likely to....
...either going be yourself or compromise yourself in the playoff to Stop being so simple and nonchalant about the reality of the situation you are in! 
As the Unknown iRate Detective enters the freak out zone asking who brung on the need to panic?
Uninterrupted Pressured Rejection?

At the Yard of Alternative Training the following Question is being asked...
Does untreated Brain Damage take form in an individual become a collective and then go onto become a Cultural Traditions and a Social Norm?
In the Alternative Training Course Referred to as Therapy is the Process based at Natural Flowism Studios the following is being explained Asked and Considered...
Free flow Journal writing is an important part of psychotherapy it can help process and unblock a lot of unwanted troubling and disturbing thoughts and feelings!
In the form of personal therapy what does the creation of an irate character and detective really represent? Does it show someone feeling oppressed or living depressed due to being legally illegally abused?

Tuid...is still at home...

"Well what do think what must they have been through? High time we got rid of the label of black as aggressive and white as jealous and subservient or passive when neither is not always actual or true in such forms even though too often perceived and presented as such!”

"Eh?"

"Have white women unwittingly been forced to be seen as more sexualised and more sexually available and more easily attainable sexually whilst or when black women had not been and doesn’t that all lead back to the same place? That place of seriously dangerous and even subtle forms of physical spiritual psychological sexual and emotional rape?

"Which pornovirus cunt cam up with that and let that can out of the bag?”
“Be honest why do you think they are among the most likely in statics in the supposed higher figures that show white women are more likely to stalk than their black counter-parts and I will make it very clear it is not true of everyone not every white women has the tendency too stalk but I do want to at least begin to clarify and even expose the common myths and denominators.... your the detective your supposed to know them statics what is behind the most likely?"

"The one thing i have to do as a detective is make sure the people who claim they can solve a crime or an abusive situation are not the ones who created the crime or the abuse or problems against others in the first place. Especially when it comes to detecting and investigating stalkers ongoing assaults be they covert or overt!"

"What do you mean?"

"Stalkers are often unable or in some cases incapable of seeing where and how to appropriately respond in relationships due to the level of entitlement they often feel regardless of their race that is an important fact to know about stalking behaviours in relation to the history of the word! Stalking behaviours by the nature of obssession appear to  set out to cause years of doubt about their cruel evasive yet possessed behaviour patterns and antics. As a result they often gain ground among those people included their target who may be suffering from moments of much needed avoidance or those who have been forced out of  responding as they naturally or normally would due to  enforced trauma often by a stalker or domestic abuser aka former friend/spouse/family member this can cause conflict avoidant responses which may not be natural to the original character of  that person!"


"It is sad but true that all too often due to unprofessional persons or untrained personnel in positions of legal authority  willing or unwittingly all to often  stalkers are allowed and permitted to re-enter or sneak back into their victims or  targets life - as the victim or survivor attempts to heal from the very stalker who is again allowed to hide and continue levels of stalking antics around them due to being allowed to live near to their victims or have unlimited access to them in some form or the other! "

"So...you mean that a person that is either victimised or has already gone through being targeted by a stalker cannot even escape or find help whilst trying to escape the brutality of a stalker? Hence might be still forced to fight on against the stalker they are trying to heal from because no one can see what a stalker is?”

“That shows the extent of obsessional clinging control of the stalker. But what about when stalking emerges as a back drop or prelude of rape and incestuous rape where the feelings of a right of entitlement is in a family or even religious group/cult or sect is sky high?"

"It is the same thing as said before?"



“So they are still  predicting her whereabouts and behaviour in the most intimidating way it feels like they have no compassion for how she feels?”

“It has felt like a commune or a sect of people cold and heartless in their need to be proved correct about the personal business of someone else - without shame or any realisation that that is where a boundary should have been placed in the need to have and to hold and to know so much. All they see or all they know is how they need or must have it be. Yet callous if they have wrongly taken from ruthless and possessive over all possessions!”

“But aren't we all like that? Imagine you have an investigation which has taken years then you find out or work out the reason it has taken years is because the culprit of the crime was already covering up that they had been stalking somebody else the whole time which led you astray within the investigation so you will not concentrate on the life of the one doing the targeting but make a culprit out of the one who is reporting the crime?!”

“Yeah that would be one of them situations where it always leads back to the one left looking like a deer in headlights!”

“Yeah so that means the one left in distress and anxiety because of due to being attacked in the first place!”

“So to go on about their tactics and antics they would feel the need to go as far as to need to drop something on the floor to either let you know they have bought or had deliver the same product as you?”
“The obsessive intimidating and intrusive need to always need clues? “

(Random Clairaudience: They were asked not to leave the hotel a voice said at 23:45 on the 02/08/20?)

“This whole behaviour pattern has turned out to be completely;
Child done wrong and the most intimate methods of intimidation!”

“The need to constantly match up or be alike?”
“The uncanny appearance of team work everything is too neat and clean and tidy?”

“They've planned plotted and done something very nasty over something really small and stupid?”
“Has it been about A joke which back fired?”
“Why would that keep so many so loyal to its duration”?

“The case will remain open but I am still going with intention to remove or come between Mother and childern as possible motive and obsession, with accounts and reports of stalking or even those involved in recycling and using reports of survivors of stalking or those who re-write a survivors account will all be used as evidence in cases of murder even if remotely related or combined with what is written!” TUiD announces
“Fluff Daddy?”
“How many? Or so many unknown from travels all around the world?”
“I’m still curious about where when and why there was a need to surround the poet?”
“Jixy People?”

“Right...well... now there’s a story!”
“Money retrieved?”

“Fully and purely success at the ego's cost and behest?”
“Yah rich/yah rich/but it is when you have to put down and put upon someone/and then have to turn up and to let them know/dat dem riches don't glow!”
“Hilarious!”
“Is you ever lasting cuntahfunckingvirus!”
“I beg your pardon...do you mind....that is inappropriate and it is not funny!”





 
"So what this?"
"Church!"
"Whats with the singing?"
"What are they singing do you mean?"
"Yeah...wotz this?"
"They are now singing...Onward pissed off soldiers
No more willing to go to war
Never has there been such a victory..because before we were all in to much pain to see!"

"Innit in paedophilia that they pretend to be not the age which they are to lure and groom someone into a confidence or level of trust?"
"Yeah...does that mean all these turn up and pretend to be.....has meant what exactly?"