Thursday 19 August 2021

iNbetween Fanaticism-Dry Stale List of insecurities and of Course typical same old Questions!

A lot of people are going out looking for love without clinical or  medical training then finding they are married to a person’s too far gone illness which they are ill prepared for and incapable of treating kindly, well, or compassionately!
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Vice Versa
Man sees woman unattached he starts weighing up his options instead of learning who she is? Where she is really at in her life? What and who she really wants out of life or in her life? What her true intentions are? Most important who is she genuinely and truthfully emotionally attached too and what she is emotionally attached too? And what new emotional attachments is she willing to accept?
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He still loves and adores an occasional girlfriend he met years ago, it’s over but they still speak everyday and her husband is cool with that? He reminisces all the time about their time together: is he homesick? Feeling very insecure and inadequate and underappreciated  with the person he is in an intimate relationship with now? Or is he just stirring his own shit? Or trying to cause a situation which will get somebody else stalked? Because he derives a sick pleasure from it? Or is he displaying hidden reactions and feelings which betray the possibilities of him feeling he was manipulated-sleighted-belittled-pressured-taken for granted-bossed around-forced and coerced into a relationship and then marriage and then kids without his express permission?
What on earth crumbled his boundaries in the first place?
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Its tiresome my love But seriously I can’t be with you anymore! 
Mysteriously man just can’t leave! Just can't get out of the house/family home or property door, and can no longer live unhindered or unattached from who and what he no longer chooses, why?
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He can never leave!
He has no more choice!
Was he stalked into the marriage?
Or is man still under the influence of all his abusers behaviours?
Is he expected to be so conditioned that he is expected to accept such restrictive inhibiting behaviours as traditionally normal marriage behaviours?
Or is holding a person against their will supposed to be automatically acceptable when it comes to old time traditions or truths of marriage or just in relationships per say?
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What is the best way...for the GOOD of all concerned..to get someone to take responsibility for themselves and others?
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Is it to assume they automatically have  the capacity?
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Or is it each of our individual responsibility to learn our own capacity and capabilities for each scenario we choose or each scenario which we do not choose but that comes up for us anyway  in our lives. Is it each well persons responsibility to learn and grow the capacity and resources to be able to deal with all the possible consequences for  each moment we are alive?
Who is responsible for those not well enough? Where do we look to find out who does and who does have the capacity to take responsibility for themselves and others?
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Its a Sleepy Sunday I put on soft wool and eat cold ice cream yes cold ice cream...its a bit of a chuckle chuckle but it is because  I miss him!
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Something about life recently seems so one upping insensitive evil even competitive to the ugliest of extremes. Life just has not been feeling like our love any more, which always included everything. We always made space for everything about each other but it just felt gone. Yet I visualized us all day long his head buried in my chest . Envisaged him never wanting to.leave me nor I him. I hate to miss him. I like to live with trust knowing he’ll come back and we will continue but not from where we left off because of course those moments are gone!
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From LHR to GLA and all the fallout inbetween a teacher is born every minute especially when you follow and search clairaudiently!
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Tuesday 17 August 2021

iNbetween Fantascism - For Freedom Sake!

Dear Father God!
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I am so thankfully grateful and blessed to repent and surrender to the forgiveness purpose and power life is!
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In  all that infinite wisdom!
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Loose us this day (as I have so learnt to say)from the Angel of Death!
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Every bank and banker loose them from the Angel of Death!
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Every stock exchange and root of all monies loose it and them from the Angel of Death right now!
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Loose this globe called earth from the Angel of Death from the perceptions created everywhere loose us now from it!
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From every death created by the power of thought invested in us all that was unwittingly formed into strength and empowerment and imagery thought belief perception and manifestation that led every nation to believe their should be decay and therefore death right back before the time of the perception known as Christ and the back to the moment creation began where it was believed death should be? loose us loose me now! this day! this moment! this time! from it now!
This script!
This poem!
This prayer maybe deemed as arrogant! Stupid! Cruel! Unnecessary! to be heeded or  needed or not needed! but dear God by the brain power and mentality invested in me I surrender this version to thee and beyond with thee! That the thought form or perception be no more! I do not know what inspires me or thy script or why this came upon me this day? Relieve it! Allow it!as I so surrendered to it! In Jesus name Amen pon  it!
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I am so thankfully grateful and blessed to repent as I repent and surrender to the forgiveness power and purpose life is!
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Amen this day(as I have learnt from others to say) and for always if there is nothing else I can ever do in this life with my life, I surrender this poem as an Amen!
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A Freedom of Being!
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Amen!
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For Freedoms Sake!
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In the name of the Father Son and Holy Ghost and for however and with whatever anyone else will supplement those 3 with, amen!
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My Comment:

Whilst I was creating this poem on 17/08/2021/20:00ish @ #hamiltonservices #M74 almost if by joke I almost forgot to pay for parking! There's me writing by prayer about my own wishes and perceptions about  money and the reflection was in my own memory. Thankfully, I am fully aware my written work reflect me first and whatever I'm going thtough. Written works is what I use to self-heal. 

Due to my own internal struggles I have long combined my experiences of abuse with financial perceptions because I grew up so self conscious of how sometimes warped and worst of all limited my financial perceptions were and application of resources are at times. Especially as I feel I want to do much better when it comes to time management especially within limited amounts of time. Thankfully, I still get things done and sometimes when you think you can speed ahead life can sometimes remind you nothing happens until it is meant too! 

But still the question remains: if thought creates why did humanity create death as an option? 

Remember: these are creative works only!
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Monday 9 August 2021

inBetween Fanatiscism 1987-2007-2021 wHere is the uPdate?

If there is nothing inside everything is created outside?
He tried to plead sanity off the backs of the emotionally disturbed physically abused financially   impoverished he alone created a lack of humanity...but..was he covering up something else like the lack of female success he creates soon after his presence has been felt...an undercurrents of absolute range and hatred not only for himself but everybody else? Or is he a possible victim or survivor of female incest? Rape? Or molestation or something else? Why does he continue to harbour  such jealous hate? Is he the silent witness to the murder only he knows he covertly and tactically yet tacitly  committed?
Hate it if you are lying all the time and you have got no truth to show at the end of it! But what and who does that  really mean? What does that rreally relate too?
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Obsessiveness about creating or having an image exists because nothing else is naturally  or internally present?
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You cannot?  or may be you can? take an illness out of a disorder dis-ease or brain damage and make it into authority or power simply because of its grip on what is of monetary value? Is that what for so many years so many have tried to do? Whilst deep in the need to let go of those with no ability to accurately relate relay translate or understand information correctly? Within that plight is that deeply damaging phrase too all to often too many of us have failed to understand  the impact and damage it has cause our lives! How many times have we unwittingly  shown someone no care or understanding by saying and asking: isn’t it obvious? Or I thought it would be obvious!
In the name of knowledge about brain health how dare any of us say or even ask?
If someone struggles with perception due to injury and yet that person leads the appearance of a normal life making choices unaware of the extent of they are perception are off balance! How dare we ask or presume what is obvious for those who cannot even perceive social cues? It would be so violent to the person for anyone to presume what is obvious to them or is not obvious to them, and what's more could never be obvious to them because quite natural they do not possess the brain function to perceive what is presumed to be generally obvious to all those who do not lack that particular brain function! Isn't hat more correct? Especially for those who suffer in life as a result of their injuries when it comes to having no grip on what is generally thought to be accurate perception least of all because theu appear to be coping with life just as successfully as everybody else!
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Until you have learnt each individuals ability to perceive learn or understand is on the same page as everybody else  nothing is obvious to anyone! Brain damage trauma injury forcible mental emotional spiritual and financial perceptions disturbances due to abuses all affect how an individual  can see something as obvious or not!
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I need to address this/ you done mash up my life/ distracted me from my loved ones/ destroyed my reputation so i don’t stand a chance/ you cost me so much and then you can’t ever pay it back it's not that they don't  know how you feel....they are doing things to deliberately make you feel things you do not want to feel!

...its just hard for them to believe you've been had
Not by a lover
But trapped within the years of a conniving stalker with a ton of supporters no one else is willing to perceive or see!
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