Thursday 26 November 2020

Fanaticism Passage 27

Cover...
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The world has come on a bit since the beginning of inventions
They invented the pound which will have absolutely no value if produced in high quanity which will allow just about anybody to live abundantly if printed made easy?!
Seriously!
Are you gonna tell no one has caught on to the biggest sadistic murderous trick known to man?
Money
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Of all the things the world has invented you gonna tell all this time no one can come up with a Monterey  system that will not devalue due to quantity or scale?
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In this whole amount of time with people walking and running fast fast with brief case busy busy in the city not starting only speaking the middle
"If we print print like that the value of currency will go down
Instead of looking at how much time that has gone by creating lack like fact!!
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Its the same vexations I am having with my own inner self in my own personal worls whilst deep in thankfulness and gratitude know that without any doubt but as well this is not just me its on the mind of many!
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Fucking eeking and peetering it out like funking bird fucking food and the forest is still fricking full of it
Everybody's is talking in the middle the currency value is gonna go down well that was back then how well healed was anybody back then?
You would fink if it got fucking started as what it is it can change from what it is I can't understand how that is not some first flip?
It seems like such an ignigma to me
That those with a much quicker and clearer brain processing and mind function just wouldn't see divide and conquer from devalue to appreciating values?
Of this is not comprehensive cooperate fact or knowledge 
Its part of a simple poetry book
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All the things which has been invented up until now that has changed all our lives and yet still...
...something feels like it has snapped and it can so easy-ish to change
Not that creating a financial construction or infrastructure is easy not that I would know
But what has become of money  does not have to be so brain and soul destroying either.
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Boy, I don't know what has come over me but this has been with me for some time. 
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Since seeing certain boundaries just thrown down toward my life
Things on a personal level I did not mean to allow happen but had no strength to do anything else or allow certain individuals to get away with violations against me which should have been followed up and through a correct system. If you do stop serial sex offenders they become more angry and possibly even more subtle but it never just ends there unfortunately 
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Its strength and behaviour patterns which get all tied up 
And now its mens rea
And maybe as well that it may also be that brunette man on the tube train all those years ago as I was going up down and around town getting to work who sat with a large baggy coat feathered neck length hair blatantly holding a brand new pack of what looked like minted money sat across from me looking focused but daze was he trying to show me something so obvious about what world change is?
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I dare you!
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I dare you to see flip it change it and stop talking about what isn't as if is!
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Just for being a Poet of sorts theres back lash misinterpretation, the how dare she! Possessiveness's over expression...but hey!
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Wednesday 11 November 2020

Fanaticism pt 9

Originally Added to blogger 11/11/2020/11:30
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I am so thankfully grateful and blessed to repent and surrender to the forgiveness purpose and power life is!
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Thou Shalt not Leave!
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Set out feeling great
Driving along enjoying the sound of the engine, the wind blowing, or some fine music 
Minding my own pretty business
But the cars start lingering in the mirror
Driving slower
Then a feeling comes over
Feels like puffs of air rising or swiping down across your face
You still ani't taking any notice because your driving and trying to do what is road safe
Cars suspiciously waiting driving 
A Yellow Van 
An energy swathing begins occurring
The next thing you know you are struggling to stay awake behind the wheel whilst driving!
Forced to fall asleep
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There is a long line of traffic driving in the same lane behind you
Lengths and lengths of long trucks
But you observe one driver with their lights too high or too bright
That driver keeps pulling out and flashing lights
You try to ignore it but it keeps happening and then you start to feel you energy changing
Forced to change again
Because someone is practicing something in the belief it will never be identified as someone else
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A jealously of such hate
Which can never congratulate
A jealously of such hate
Which hates anyone who can graduate
A jealously of such hate
Which will concoct and derive a way to destroy in such away that evidence will only ever point at one perceived as a victim and equally as a survivor for ignoring the aims of the one so jealous!
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Driving down the road again
And many will try claim  something is wrong with the state you are in
Stressed out and traumatised, yes!
Terrified even to be left not earning after the years jealously managed to find their way into destroying what the mundane and boring where doing to make a living!
But they had to get into destroy everything
How dare she leave and seek better from education or any job place and most of all my life!
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But you will be to blame if it is not seen or realised that this is the work of possible levels of highly psychiatric illnesses
It is not that you are without compassion 
But this continues on because of where the levels began
It is hard to have to speak out against someone
It is hard to forced to speak out against a regime
It is hard to be one person forced into a position to have to stand up to an entire institution which also holds or has at one time held within it abusive beliefs and systems!
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Thou Shall Leave a State of Fear for a Love which will always understand no guilt will ever abide where illness is left to thrive!
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Driving down the road
Poked prodded shoved
By energy derived from illnesses or the necessity to resist
Feeling forced to use your imagination to match the hate sent into your system
Where you are driving down the road and again feel woozy after the driver of the red car infront is lingering and watching you as you drive past crackit lane
Waiting and gauging for when the "sleep now" command can go in
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Excerpt from up and coming book

Fanaticism! 
To be published
Amazon kdp
www.naturalflowism.com

 



Sunday 25 October 2020

The Obvious...

I swear the thing about the obvious is that everybody or almost everybody sees it but maybe just maybe not everybody can say it, because it is obvious

It is lined up perfectly 
Because it is obvious
But it begs something which is obviously obvious whilst not yet being obvious obviously!
 
Something happened around me in such away I know it was something of someone obvious yet it has possibly morphed into something of someone doing what they do less obviously 

I was fine alert and awake
Then felt a very fine slight movement of air swipe from top left of my face and as if it was pull down to the bottom right of my face toward my jaw as a car emerged from the service station to merge with the flow of motorway traffic

But upon approach my thoughts turned to suddenly being filled with dread of being forced to feel drowsy when it is not what I am feeling really. Yet if you know a regular occurrence will occur it is obviously wise to be prepared but not so obvious to confirm that us an attacker lagging behind as they wait and gauge their approach which will leave being yanked and dragged and feeling battered just for doing the work you need which matters.

There are halls and corridors filled of those which suffer the most horrendous ills whilst causing the most cruel and dreadful skilled in appearance distracting their obvious inability to have any kind and healthy  intention 

Many visit and work with the Intention of healing and being kind
I was one of them at one point in time. But I was too immature to look back to see who would have seen me or noted me in my blind empathy to know what cruelty would do when kindness is shown. 

It is much more obvious now 
Because years of experience has forced me to wake up to the multiple tricks of distraction easily preyed upon whilst I try to prioritise my focus and attention

It is obvious
But it leaves an obvious thing
Something which leaves the obvious less obvious yet obviously present
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Natural Flowism 
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A Freedom of Being!
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Woke up remembering...

Though enjoying being in public places had been made uncomfortable 

I remember being just fine until that helicopter began rising and my mind and head began spinning with messages like: your not staying
Shouldn't you be going?

Today when I remember I hear things sentences like: ...and I went and paid him - the make things impossible payments

Now, i am not stating any facts or laying any claim to such payments existing or such action of being true!

I just remember feeling instantly unhappy with and without fully consciously realising or properly processing feelings of feeling violated and attempts at public humiliation whilst internally terrorized in public and in private!

They laughed
I have laughed
I know different laughs
Was so in pain
I laughed till others felt shame 
Learnt from the years I was laughed at beyond just feeling humiliated and I still grew up to laugh when young too immature to realise the illness excessive laughter can be and the long lasting negative effects it can sustain on certain vulnerable citizens.

They laughed
With beautiful white teeth smiles
On bended knee
Sporty
Were they real?
I was so steeped in spiritualism at the time
Looking back it feels like they were hiding somebody
Bad reputation 
Theres me living trying to get to normal by writing and eventually sharing my personal initmate diaries for my own self-healing only to find the years when I was under the age of consent below the age of a child sexually abused all those years where being used to again abuse me for being loose!

Yes as an adult you have your responsibility to take and decisions to make
But I will write again
It takes years to wake up and become knowing and strong when abuse has been relentlessly maintained by abusers who cannot heal or run from what they have done

That pond
Those ducks
Those swans
The stories they must be able tell
The Gardens
The Park
Still to this day has been the everyday get out 
In my younger days it was where I thought I had dreamt up a freer life 
Away from religious restrictions
It was where speakers spoke
And hippies often shared kisses
The park is where I would go heartbroken by exes and career choices and job loses frustrated by my own lack 
Sit witless be approached by male stranger and end up experiencing chewing gum kisses 
Left me feeling completely insulted and down graded nothing romantic 
Each and every time
No love
Unexpected liaisons I still hadn't learnt to avoid!
The lushness of nature shaped into a park
The perils of the abused as they try to learn how to find the level of love they need for their own hearts to heal!
Especially when so often Love is confused as sex lust and desire
As though as easy as looking at flowers to attain
In peace I remember this refrain
But a little voice says to me...you should have gone back to sleep until you could get up without remembering anything!
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Waking Up feeling...

Corrected Version
Too many years stolen stuck thinking
Too many years debilitated by unanswered questions 
Too many years spent being followed everyday
By sick obssessional  and deluded naysayers!

A stalker is a stalker and stalking does not change 
Calling it journalism does not reduce the pain
The people want
The people need
The people read
But are the people all good
Or are they sick with greed or wrong needs?
Are the people injured 
Or full of dis-ease 
About what they think they need or want to see or read?
So why feed?

Too many years spent lost and feeling stolen
Though thankfully some good and informative information has been chosen
Researched and taught millions of us many many good lessons 

A stalker is a stalker
Stalking is a very serious and even deadly diagnosis and set of behaviours

Which cannot be hidden clothed or clad behind anything, anyone, least of all a profession!

Because sooner or later
A person with such behaviours
Will be forced to expose the behaviours nature!
 


Too much time....
&
Too many years.... 

Thank God they sat there saying 
Shrugging and winking about the blatant crimes they have been committing

There are no permissions given in a cameras instructions which says you can rob and steal a persons life, their mind, or their belongings
Just because you cannot perceive who is collectively clinically sick!
Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Unedited Version
Too many years stolen stuck thinking
Too many years debilitated by unanswered questions 
Too many years spent being followed everyday
By sick obssessional  and deluded naysayers!

A stalker is a stalker and stalking does not change 
Calling it journalism does not reduce the pain
The people want
The people need
The people read
But are the people or good
Or they sick with greed or wrong needs?
Are the people injured 
Or full of dis-ease 
About what they think they need or want to see or read?
So why feed?

Too many years spent lost and feeling stolen
Though some good and informative information has been chosen
Researched and taught millions of us many many good lessons 

A stalker is a stalker
Stalking is a very serious and even deadly diagnosis and set of behaviours

Which cannot be hidden clothed or clad behind anything, anyone, least of all a profession!

Because sooner or later
A person with such behaviours
Will be forced to expose the behaviours nature!
 


Too much time....
&
Too many years.... 

Thank God they sat they saying 
Shrugging and winking about the blatant crimes they have been committing

There are no permissions given in a cameras instructions which says you can rob and steal a persons life, their mind, or their belongings
Just because you cannot perceive who is collectively clinically sick!
Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Sunday 11 October 2020

Freedom and Love Thankfully Grateful not because you have lied something else means you cannot fully say!

I am so Thankfully Grateful and Blessed as I Repent and Surrender to the Forgiveness Purpose and Power Life is!

Every time I look around
Someone is affected
Even by not being affected 
Some how even that is connected

This morning gratefully I woke up and asked myself what haven't you been saying or writing?

For me 
I have taken my creatively written self-healung everywhere I think it should go
From love to hate
From kindness to wickedness and back again to freedom and love
But you know even though I have shared and created so much in as much honesty as I can
The truth is alot of what I have written about still has lengths and miles of things I would really like to say but feel I cannot
It is as much as I can do
Is to get some parts of it out of my system each day week or month etc
But when I really ask myself is that everything I was even surprised by myself when the answer was no!

As complaining as I feel I have been forced to be. Something is still tellung me I have not complained or advised appropriately to possibly affect a change in situations which have deeply changed and sadly even affected the way of my being.
All of that at times feels like a danger almost lurks beneath after years of being mistaken for possibly being somebody else or by anothers perception of who you really are.

It is sad but true among the wrong mindset speaking about the way you respond to life and others can mean the difference of someone believing they can blame you for all wrong doing without feeling any shame or responsibility about their own behaviour.

Self Awareness
Self Searching
Self Healing
Is not a freedom for all to blame you because you can look at your own behaviours actions reactions and responses and own them.

Responding to this mornings wake up call which very gently and lovingly ask me to search myself and at least know that as much time that is given sharing must for me personally hold the realisation of what is not being written from the total depth of my being. The really crux that would more than likely pull the feeling of disappearing moments and lost days into the open where they belong to be dealt with properly to the point they will not continually return to consistently haunt me.

I have put enough on myself to achieve change and turn around in my own private world. I must admit I have been ill prepared for how my own private energy goals and desires would connect or manifest externally. 

Through anyone person we see or feel one of lifes blessings and challenges is to know and learn if what we see or if what we are told is in the proportion to the real truth if it were ever told.
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Freedom and Love!
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Saturday 10 October 2020

The Unknown iRate Detective interrupts a form of prayer!

Dear God

A mind seems stuck on returning to thoughts of someone it has never known, why?

"Because it was supposed" TUiD interrupts a time of prayer

It is known there is a diagnosis but diagnosis is not felt as a diagnosis yet within that also is a diagnosis that begs the question as to how can freedom be obtain from such a diagnosis?

Filled ego and diagnosis wax lyrical about no love as they cry in heartbreak of all they cannot any longer see or feel

We remain together in a refrain where never the twain shall meet or be seen 
We never existed 
Yet we feel but not yet freely
For we are trapped above and from beneath
Yet we are not linked except some tries to perceive a link as a result of a diagnosis at which time they will perceive to unify things and people where absolutely none could ever exist!

"Get in your stalker bit or should I say?" TUiD

Silence

"Ok...then....heres the odd bits she turns up again like a sideways canter who is it?...fuck knows....that last time it was the sideways canter to waving card board opposite the airport on the A40 seemed like a replica outfit from time spent delivering on the back of a Class 2 in 2002 called to a job last minute.  What is the need for all this can't say feckry? They are people being sucked into behind the scenes of things they want nothing to do with. They mean no harm they just want to pick up and keep moving on but...maybe all of this leads back to the old days when there were fewer nosey people asking to see into this and that and those that did get involved knew what they were getting involved in because it was what they wanted or it was who they fell in love with!  It was about less sick people allowed to pretend they were in love because true love does not produced statics of domestic violence or other abuses....to fuck this blud clart got everybody out...and thats the same for the cuntavirus who sets up shop only around the low paid...back in the day they used to put you through yah money and you have only just got paid. Because the flipping cunt used to be thinking up ways of how you could spend yah money before you even left your work on pay day.... thought of how many rounds of cups of tea you should buy everytime somebody does something on the same job they are already getting paid to do, then just to keep your wages you have got to be able outwit and get passed the market stall of things to buy before you get home to yah partner and kids with nothing left for food and bills...i tell yah back in the day they had you set up proper...and if you dare walked passed their pub where they had all their beers on tab you'd get laughed into the ground for being too tight...it was though you and your family meant nothing!" TUiD

Dear Father

We pray for the strength to find a healthy way out of out diagnoses cuntavirus and otherwise or stupid!
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Thursday 8 October 2020

Somewhere in this Love is Freedom and Bliss!

Ever heard of them that can become so jealous in their behaviour toward you that dare you mention abuse or your feelings from their abuse anything said or done will only ever be ruinous to the point of to have any compassion or understanding for someone who had become so poisoned it eventually becomes safer to show yourself as feeling nothing for them at all, it is an unimaginable state of relationship to ever have to face

I wake up gratefully in what feels like a dual heartbreak. The impossibility  of love reminds me of where my life first began

As I wake thankful and grateful for my life I feel like my head is in a bind and turn to cleansing meditations for a sick home to cleanse the water and to clean and protect the third eye psychically 

I never grew up knowing or understanding anything about third eye, the chakra system, meditation despite going to church and learning to pray.  The first worldly thing that captured my imagination as an alternative form of guidance other than the God and the Bible was astrology and astrologers. I lived in years of guilt and fear as I became hooked on their guidance beginning  the journey from child rape survivor into a woman hoping to find love not realising all I will eventually do is meet no mutual love at all. Passing fancy. Forced proclamations of Love but in the true sense of it all nothing except the greatest love of all that I too found within me and Motherhood

I didn't realise that in deciding to share my inner world thoughts and feelings that work would be listed as critical. It certainly is not how I see myself or what I do but I woke on the  afternoon somehow feeling like I had broke new ground

Women become men to fulfil themselves or for the varying reasons necessary some sadly so they can continue the abuse against women and vice versa though this is not fully true or comprehensive it comes to me again and again even though I would prefer to find alternative breakthroughs from an ongoing truth of abuse I don't quite know what including that here is supposed to be about, or do if anything at all

That world which says its all on you
That diagnosis which says it must be you 
Because those who suffer from it are too weak to release you or be truly released or free
The guilt of someone who could do nothing more than try to use me and keep me trapped in their need to distract from what really creates happy

The years of someone elses innate fear that made sure they were here there and everywhere to make sure there was no one else I could tell or nowhere I could go to escape their guilty need for control

It has been an all out terror of those screaming the truth on an everyday wage which cannot compare to the investment made to silence those screams till they dissipate, all of this has never just been about me you suffer if you cannot love or heal though it may not seem so in the presence of the ego and its bravardo

Underneath for those of us who continue to live normally adjusting to what circumstances maybe we understanding that is what true freedom and bliss even as we are forced to watch the plans of cruelty and wickedness trying to be free without any independence of you and me
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Natural Flowism
A Freedom of Being!
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Tuesday 6 October 2020

Who Started a War between Men and Women and Why? TUiD is in pissed off coarse work!

If you could imagine....

"What?" TUiD
.... being surrounded by people who are convinced they are doing good so far removed from the reality of the oppression they issued!

I could 
I could imagine it because I am the one living it
"Oh fuck off and shut up!"  TUiD

Nobody acknowledges or says anything about the repressed lesbians forced to be married to who could never care or give a shit about them because after all this is all happening behind a religion
"Is it?"TUiD

The sexually repressed deviant and the oppressed are all favoured as the Godly as the undercover police officers attend each divine service unnoticed!

Insane and incessant beatings follow in the homes of church goers where finally the truth about the reality of the criminal attendees is unearth whilst some escape claiming a need to be preying upon those driving for a living

They keep up good jobs and successful businesses behind the misery they have created as they stalk other church goers

...and it all comes out again as though i cannot write anything different!

To be able to freely think is right except when you chose to be part of cult of some other division which being a driver isn't except for the stalker who has tried to cruely control everybody. Who has tried to remove any importance from rape and remove the stigma from incest so again one part of society can be raped and abused be taken for granted by anybody and anything without their permission! Then the same stalker in another incident joins protests about systemic racism chauvinism and the same kind of systematic abuse they have issued!

People....no.... 
....it is not just people because there is a certain kind violence that resides in a certain body which appears to be a person but unfortunately eventually they can only ever be identified as a complete disorder and an enemy!

The right to think freely?
I pray there is no question mark really 
Because I knew I was attacked so intimately
Attacked on purpose
Of all the good and great things we can do with our lives
But it is has been the consistent need to ride or drive pass
To consider all who truly cannot communicate
Debilitated by the one stuck on using inside power to cause unnecessary misery 
Life made worse because of the willingness to let go and survive
The longer they were not stopped the deeper and greater the prison they created for those deemed unwilling to obey their cruel sickness which convinced some people  they had to be in control of everybody
It wasn't enough to stay away
They replicated the faces of the ones they targeted
So intent on their last will in testament
They fight knockout each other out Then set the lie around those who supposedly never knew but whose life eventually became so infected because of questions of unanswered
Clairaudience which whispered in the last week of September 2020 and beginning of October 2020 for me to say: Remember I'm in Vietnam...same quiet voice also says...act of God.....
From who and for who it is- it is not known
Too schooled to know or be true
But to set up a constant presence around someone to destroy their natural ability to think for themselves to do that what on earth can such a diagnosis know?
A careful calculation
If what you think about comes about then only a stalker can believe that their wish will be fulfilled but there is much more to attraction than that everything must align and not have an adverse vibration which indicates you are being forced against your own will - because if it does the 'against" will be what aligns to the vibration which will show up as a negative and attract!

The vibration has to be equally permissive for an all out ongoing positive result. 

Since neutral and natural law responds to the most predominant thought...one person being coercive and manipulative forcing a another person to sit in possessive traumatic oppression due their presence.... will be sending an adverse energy to the universe which will create more of the same, correct?

A lot of frustrated church goers and frustrated women who were desperate to marry who didn't know about hes gay and hes going to stay that way and worship just the same!

"Oh give me a break this ain't even real...what a load of shit you have written who cares?"





Thursday 1 October 2020

TUiD stars in....to not cast dispersions - The Coarse Work is...what is missing from that which will be whole?

The following is scary because it may sound condesending when it is not meant too...

Coarse Work example only: context is: unwanted sexual behaviours that disturb harm and abuse otherwise normal relations between people and the ability to meet someone naturally and naturally grow in love lets just say someone dyslexic or something else similar to that or in that field of challenges or within the same context of perception and ability...person is functional and intelligent but can they fully perceive the variation of  'marketing' antics of the sex industry  puts out to be able to avoid it to discern and a relationship which has intimacy?

They are young and vulnerable yet they function as rough and tumble
Sometimes blinded by their visual identities and the appearance and visual identity and wealth of others...but for the truth is it among them all?

But it is sexual
And they are looking
When your not looking
There is someone checking that you are looking
Did she look?
Here's the game...so you get 1 point if she looks at a girl....ah...and yes someone is developing danger and is stuck on creating a game plan...and its like shouting out loud from behind glass 
Sound proofed glass!
Creatively you say it
Therapeutically you need the reprieve and relief from it
But then there is a terror which begins to build up
If it builds up in you it will make you sick
Then you think.....suppose it triggers shit?
Then you eventually let go and hope
Because you just dont have it
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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TUiD's busy inbetween phone hackers & re-writters another aspect of the case has been discovered...

...Thursday seems to be the pimps renewal...but there is nothing to get excited about because it means abuse!

Phones are currently heated and at the ready as the re-writers hack in....

Without Excuses
Without Reason
Without Success
Its been like screaming from behind glass
Glass which is sound proofed! 

They lure
They walk with children as if almost like cattle
Dressed up in bravado
The pain of exposure and rape allowed to look over and control so many?!
No gender bias
Just the effects of assault and rage
From blatancy to secrecy
Too well honed and accepted in society
Pimping is no longer just street selling and sex trafficking 
It is the trolls and the jealous partners
Who have never met you
Who become convinced they can match make you without your consent
It all melts into this one vibe of Thursday being the pimps day and night out?

Underwhich one man is believed to have been found to have been kind whilst having beaten an assault much of womankind
Has merged gangs and crime into the best of society and working life but not without an unrelenting hold on what he believes to be his families world?

Not much Coarse Worl here as something needed to tie us back into finishing the blogs about incest...in the random ongoing game of blame vin = ven = vill = vi!

When you do not even need to mix or have anything to do with the sex trade but you can be singled out as a clients wish!

Then find yourself as marked territory against your own will and permission!

Woe betide you if they can pay to have stalked all day
Watched in every which way
Not necessarily because of theie money or fame
No more randomly

Without Excuses
Without Reason
Without Sensitivity 
Without Success
Things built up to no a veil
Much attention
Vibes and what feels like things are being built up
Only for the cruelty of dis-ease and injury to be the be all and end all of everything happening


...and to come again to this thing called Thurdays.....pimps night or day merged or on own territory....it is not to be a judge or a prude for everybody needs to make their money but when it crosses the line into a space and time not designed for such ongoing psychology damage anyway but for that attack to also be of a sexual nature hypnotically pulled and picked on "air pressure" energy projection techniques which can violate you expose you leave you feeling physically uncomfortable and emotionally and spiritually distarught and destroyed then you must be dealing higher up the more dangerous ends of personality disorders?

Even families getting on the pimps treadmill
Estranged but this is the guy the family preferred best....and you don't even know him....years of distress!

Though none of this may be true to offload your day in writing is one of the best ways to heal your brain
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Natural Flowism
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A Freedom of Being!
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Monday 28 September 2020

TUiD wants to confront Lavinia

But in the meanwhile sit wondering and dreaming up Coarse Work  why...In a form of skilful hatred a town is skilfully run raggedigidee by its own willingness to reject and accept wrong opposites?

Late to bed 
Early to rise
Makes a person
Sick unhealthy and unwise?

Everybody is press these days
They make you feel stalked as they follow on behind the followed
You got christian press blog press everybody just press
Its like the motorway come like one ironing board and everybody driving deh own little iron press ganging along?

To be contd

But in the meanwhile sit wondering and dreaming up Coarse Work  why...In a form of skilful hatred a town is skilfully run raggedigidee by its own willingness to reject and accept wrong opposites?

Late to bed
Early to rise
Makes a person
Sick unhealthy and unwise?

Everybody is press these days
They make you feel stalked as they follow on behind the followed
You got christian press blog press everybody just press
Its like the motorway come like one ironing board and everybody driving deh own little iron press ganging along?

To be contd
"Lavinia...tell me" TUiD
"It has been really strange lately...." Lavinia
"More than normal?" TUiD
"It seemed like it..maybe not more than normal but definitely an intense experience of what has felt being vicariously lived through. Just these characters who have appeared who appear to think still that they are in someway connected to you and they are clearly not!" Lavinia
"Why have you held on to such avoidance?" TUiD
"I don't feel have.  I feel I have had to be almost forced to be very selective in order to either maintain or find my own happiness and safety that has taken some working out and negoiating some of which I publish!" Lavinia
"Why publish?" TUiD
"Because there is still an ongoing mystery. Don't ask me why its nothing to do with me but comes around me to the point I unwilling become affected and even responsive despite trying to ignore it all and focus on my life!" Lavinia
"But isn't this all about your success?" TUiD
"Some not all!" Lavinia
"So...if not all then the rest is someone elses need for your attention?" TUiD
"You will have to detect that all I have been responding to and sharing is living with that as a challenge and processing creatively. Creatively abd self healing has styles of self examination which may appear like it's legal process but in reality in it actually far removed!" Lavinia
"Has the enforced activity around you been the acting out the "charades" which for you or anyone must be incredibly annoying?" TUiD
"The thing is some who makes it clear they are self-healing soul searching try to pick themselves from being stalked does not need the inner most private experiences reacted too. Especially when they have tried stop the behaviour toward themselves and found in some ways things just got worse!" Lavinia
"So its a constant turning up of those who want to jeer at you?" TUiD
"The thing is through all I have written and said I still cannot even confirm it as that. Which just goes to show  I don't know or still don't understand why those years of my life had been like they were. It feels like I have been stalked by an absolute complete strange someone who possibly lied and tried to hide that they stalk me...that is the only thing I can think of when i find myself being followed around shops and streets by stranger trying to act out and hint at things they have been silenced about. At times I felt hated and attacked as though I had an affair with someone and broke them up. I made my mistakes I cannot take it back. I hurt people because I was so young niave or incapable of fully understanding - but no one left !anyone to come make home with me ever! As far as I am aware!" Lavinia
"You now understand what it is to be a gossip behind doors and then see the faces appear on the street with a form of familarity about them even as strangers who are looking at you expectantly whilst not realising they have been trapped in a rigid dichotomy of a stalkers inability to allow others to live freely! This is not an interactive story where by anyone can show up and think they are going to ve part of a live play or film as though they are the dictator of a vision where a stalker typically goes unoticed into marriage or success then blows everything into unhappiness and utter dis-ease and sin...where everything and everyone is carefully picked to translate a stalker illness in full play!" TUiD!
"Does it bother you that you have basically repeated your experience in several forms?"
"My intention was to stay truth to my own truth and heal my heart that all!" Lavinia 

"I think it is more than likely you have also been stalked by somebody elses stalker whilst your stalker also stalked you +?" TUiD
 "I must admit my life reality and truth has amalgamated in regards to the area of my life which has been stalked threatened intruded upon burgalrised  I find it incredibly difficult to keep a clear and consistent thought about it al and genuinely hope all my works and all the errors in them show that! It is no fun when your life and your perception is treated as blameworthy ongoing entertainment and entrainment to the point of brain washing others to abuse! I felt constantly compared to someone a strangers standard everything seem to have been linked to those I do not know a constant ongoing mind game of tit ffor tat and behave as though someone cannot see my age or the challenges I am trying to negotiate, if this carries on it will continue become strange to have so many harbouring and cling to my each and every mistake! Personally, i don't want no mysteries in my head no ones jealous mistress or misters just freedom!" Lavinia





  

Monday 21 September 2020

The Unknown iRate Detective is still in the Classroom Lecturing via Questioning!

The Unknown iRate Detective is still in the Classroom Lecturing via Questioning!

TUiD warns...during the duration of this section of the course you are very strongly advised to bare in mind that an innocent child and children have been forced to grow influenced by the jealous manipulative abandoning stalking behaviours of not only their own parents but the effect of survival of stalking behaviours will have on them and on the way others behave toward them!

TUiD further advises to remain neutral as you explore and consider all behaviour patterns advocacy feminism and activism may also include disturbing and challenging behaviours patterns equal to that of intense even borderline stalking behaviours as there may be an overlap as each individual fights to either regain control of the lives or maintain the healthly control they had in their lives prior to being attack. It is vital you remain clear that you see very clearly the point at which the attack on the innocent or unsuspecting began and most of all you are directed to create a big scale prevention which will stop and disallow the connections of persons, the attractions of persons, the negative vibrations of circumstances which steals the mind of each person in the first place so they will never be attracted to each other in the first place! 

References to "minds being stolen" is directly inspired and quoted from the works of Dr Daniel Amen courtesy of Amen Clinics
https://www.amenclinics.com

Proceed with Coarse Work:

Coarse Work Title: Mother tries to hide the child not able to understand they are both being targeted by qualified psychics who intend to target them for the rest of their lives without their knowledge!

A Connection to a Soap Opera for a short period of time was forced in as an indirect forced component but what erks me is why....several years and addresses later would it be necessary for the relatives of actors to be the ones to get into her home via maintainence of facilities?

Are screened dramas legitimate or fuelled by the crimes they portray and is there a link to murder when even the abused refuse to let go or stay?

How is it possible for jealously to be suffered so deeply so rampantly that even though abused or treated badly the need to hold claw back from...or gain control over is the overpowering ultimate need than to actually leave and be free?


 How do you over come a hurt when it hurt so bad to go through it and even though it is over the pain still  binds and blocks you from saying it?

Whilst there are targeted supplementsand other treatments you can take free flow journaling is one of the least expensive. What is your reaction when you come across very intense traumatised writing?

If you are dismissive can you articulate how someone who has been forced into living or becoming so incapacitated will be able to unblock the attack their under in time to get appropriate help or care?

TUiD the truth so many people do not get unblock or unlocked out of trauma which can mean excessive expression which equally gets as ignored as silence!

What happens next?

Years of hurt continues
Deep sadness and bruises of being rejected and mistreated because of so much ignorance about dis-eases
In some cases reactions and responses have been so badly damages there is no room left for excuses apologies just a continual round of abuses
Forgiveness is truly only in the letting go because your own pain escalated somebody elses pain and there is nowhere together you can go especially when you were asked to abuse someone and remain hated for being too young to know to say no!
This is what creates the Godless feelings in the world all the money to bring forth the programmes systems and technologies but the dis-eases are still saying no!
What is this NO?
Why is it always NO?
Why not find the YES?
That YES which says in fact you don't have to meet that tragic situation or somebody?
That Yes or go ahead that does not remain negatively aggravatingly or stupidly suspended in "I wouldn't like to say...or I didn't like to say....or I did not want to have to tell you.....or we just didn't want you to know or have to put up with the consequences of having to tell you?"

How does all of the above form a cult?
So...apparently the used to sit all day using all the goodness and opportunity and good health there is life to dream up and drum how they were going to take their revenge on the incest and violent forced upon innocent children forcing them to become abused children and specifically to this case set out to abuse the adulthood not only of one child but also abuse the child that cjils would grow up to have why? Not only because of abuse and dis-ease but because despite abuse dis-ease and behaviour patterns that child was to grow up and try fight to break the chains of slavery rape and incest which all go together seem like the intelligent thing to do right?

So, what causes family members to react in fear and set about making sure that family member is: 1: stalked 2: Watches that family member to the point they can gauge how they can manipulate an unknown relative into the life of an unsuspecting family member so as to continue another stage of incest and rape?

Is that family loyalty?
Sadistic?
Narcissistic?
Borderline personality disorder?
Cultural?
An affect of incestious rape?
Criminal Behaviour?
Or just what is known as keeping it in the family?
Or barbaric?
Sexual brutalist behaviour trap?
Would you support the following behaviours toward the family member who chose to do what they could do to break the chains of incestuous rape: would you agree to treat that family member with; spite? restriction? anger? make sure they are treated as a dissident? or treated as an outcast? that their work home and social life is continually harrassing?
To change track a little away from incest and dosmestic abuse can you imagine how this will play out else where like in business and employment?

After all of that how can the present past and future be orientated away from all the above?

Also, what do you do when you know and it has become extremely obvious someone or a group of people are deliberately abusing or acting to out in such a away to cause you....or put you in a dilemma which will accrue and create the need for solicitor fees?




Saturday 19 September 2020

Through Coarse Work TUiD is Deciphering...who made the 1st call to have Ms Lavinia De Ayr Stalked Mobbed Hacked and Followed?


Coarse Work: 
1. Who made the very 1st "judgement" call which named her?
2. Who made the wrong or worst move?



"Im going to run you like a chicken farm raising errant eggs..." Clairsentience imposes

"Why has Uncle S been shouting all these years?" Clairaudience 

"Since going over...hours spent with the holy Pentecost?" answers?


"His son is ruin?" Gentle 1st tare near clairsentience heard saying question marks are for broken messages not fully understood



Narcissistic personalities unrecognised drum up mystery and intrigue among the niave and unsuspecting. But in crime they and them alone produce leave and dictate the most common and obvious evidence

Why?

Sunday 13 September 2020

TUiD in....there was just something about them?


That feeling of needing to do something big to stay relevant - the investigation whilst trying to create the biggest "non-event" for someone else!

If you saw it on a ward
Someone madly running to frantically do something before someone else you'll understanding it

The visual impact of seeing someome in a confined space tackling someone dragging down and holding them back pushing elbowing and shoving someone without any apparent provocation 
Tends to be alot easier to understand than the exact same behaviour carried out energetically everyday in public or in a communal domestic setting....
The families started to turn a birch
What was that racism thing?
Defining a moment a part from the obvious violence

When your socialising or being social and the only white fucker in the room kills the moment with an insult by being condensing stupid or by inadvertantly or deliberately blurting out a derogatory comment and seemingly enjoying the effect it has....aka no more laughter or smiling faces the sadness and stares to the floor!

And that makes it still wrong to blame 'the white man'?

Yes because the white mans response has to be clear of not having its root cause in brain damage injury or dis-ease before it can be blamed on the colour of a mans skin

You have to free da white men dem!
Fah we already knew!
From da day dem talk ("the mediums") said our history is the wrong way round

Free da dis-eases cha' man and everything done!

Its the Children's turn
Or so they feel
The legacy of children whose parents stalked
Nobody is interested or into the feast-enders? but they keep turning up, and they keep turning a vibe
It is the legacy of childrenwhose parents stalked?
Coarse Work: What do they do to commemorate? What wickedness would the be willing or incapable of not pulling?
A killer has been targeting the mediums so they continually forget and become confused whilst yanking the chain of the current victims/survivors hes been stalking...?

Coarse Work: Remember this is fiction!
 
The Gods Syndromes and the "fly and walk in" set whose only aim is to attach too and constantly attack the unsuspecting of us...in the most sadistic and narcissistic cruel ways possible so as to leave their victims/survivors lives debilated as well as paralysed in an forever rotating questioning mode almost stuck on asking whose doing it?

Coarse Work: Remember this is a fictional state!

...as guilt just keeps on showing up in utter confidence that they will never ever get caught as they sub-divide havoc around people again getting on about there business and their jobs not know if where on when they will again be attached too or attacked?

Coarse Work: Remember this is fictitious!

In and around the town with the Intention of peace where all the opposites abide a jealously still cannot be contained even years after...

Coarse Work: Remember this is all without fabrication!



Their has been a killer among mediums
And a sabotaging imposter but is the imposter only a syndrome? Or someone who is out to target their pockets and their mines? Or their minds? Do the 'mides' add up?

Coarse Work: Remember this is all fiction!

They are out to create the most subtle chaos to have the smallest outrageous result because they all went playing alongside?

A pattern has been developing in an attempt to create a non violent form of protest?

By only ever working and only ever appearing on an individual basis by continuing a pattern of theft from businesses whilst using the theft and wisps of emergency vehicles as a back drop to their countless distractions.

Nothing is said!
Nothing has been said
Nothing has been told
Or left untold though nothing has been said!

It has reached the golden age of events at Fucking Them Up Malice...as the preparation of deliberately created evidence goes into fully swing whilst the real evidence remains unseen catalogued and back logged  stacked firmly behind ongoing deiberated created distracting...?

Erotomaniaists  continues to ply fantasy stories to some sub type or sub-divsion of blog and other press claiming internal jealouslys in authority have reached an all time high and is now spilling onto the street...

But what is really behind the peaceful offerings and cleansing of the red white and blue standard?

Hard should waitingTautluners 
The constant threat younger women are trying to make
Horse boxes and straight slim shoulder lines
Why show me im already pissed off with everything
Im not a pulling magnet
This is not a tree
Im just a detective trapped in the particular story
But it does strike as kind funny....
Was that a sighting of a kidnapped girl asked standing the edge of the hill withher pastel clothes and hair?
Or is this the most annoying ongoing look a like fanfare?
Its the insensitivity of them really showing their true depth or cruel strength there is just no recognition of empathy is how they come across with below a dangerously low level of the ability to respect personal and private lives boundaries!
Nanny seemingly frustrated at a look a like famous child
Take him around the round about at break neck speed
An ME20 seven round about from M20 which has seen many an appearance  of this annoying fanfare look a like team
The appearance before crime or other incidents with that deep green and white V shaped shell suit sleeve design?

Its a mad thing to call jealously skeptal...but it is how the feeling is....it is not just morbid it feels highly feminine even deliberately contrived but for one reason or the other must be brought to the attention of Ms Lavinia De Ayr why?

Research Coarse Work on: unreasonable behaviour-contact-conduct and behaviour only toward just one particular human being individual:
Is it hypnosis or brain washing that recruits the unsuspecting inadvertant suspects or stalkers?

Is it an obsession to prove or out do Ms De Ayr?

Coarse Work on: unreasonable behaviour-conduct or contact toward just one particular human being/individual!

Is it hypnosis or brain washing that allows the masses to participate or even be deliberately or inadvertently recruited or forced to participate?

In relation to criminal law and the area of "suspect profiling" at what point or stage does the need to pretispate or predict a targets whereabouts or next move become a red flag to law professionals given or assuming the individual being targeted stalking whiste-blowing or someone carrying out misconduct would understably already be deeply of somewhat disturbed by the situation they have been forced into as a target?

And whose creation of a "boo-doll" is it?

Those who have no knowledge or skill in their experience with Holy ghost/Holy Spirit?

Does opportunistic intruders go on to become stalkers?

Or where the intruders into Ms Lavinia De Ayrs property on the 16/02/20 and 23/02/20 already stalking her and still very arrogantly continuing stalk her routes at work and her journeys too and from home?
Are they also drivers in the haulage industry?
Or spy's on a ramage of raids?

Would it be wise to keep in mind the potential benefit to someone who may need an alibi when being faced with a constant stream of look a likes?
 Or would it be better to pass off each event of a stream of showbiz look a likes as just harmless yet very damaging disturbing and annoying "holiday day camp" mobbing events of only  particular individual?

Should every writer/actor/musician be forced to put up with such "brutalism" from others?

What is the best way to break free of the person who is stalking you especially when either the stalker or a stalkers control or legacy extends to the point it affects your housing especially when you have already moved more than once to get away from the problem and start over?

Can you calculate what the cost of someone being stalked by some else is?

Can you identify exactly how many lives have been impacted by this blog and this story as a whole?

Are you one of them?

If so,
Will you continue your silence?
Make a difference?
Or just let go?
Stalkers often "lure" helpers into helping them stalk who they are stalking. They do so by spite threat bribery or deliberately causing a spiteful disruption or restriction or lack around the individual they are stalking or by trying to alert authoratity by hoax so the individual who is being stalked constantly feels accused threatened and intimated. Will you be able to be a witness to all of that anyway?
Or will that scare you off? 
Stalkers need help. Stalking infects. One of the most common place a stalker may use to gain control is your home. Which means the may try to get to your neighbours to enable them to.gaun more contr over your environment which means if you have an unsuspecting neighbour they may becone infected by the person who is only there to stalk you. Can you see it? Can you connect the dots?

Is segregation in social housing really a negative?

Would it really be that bad to only place career minded people who have no anti-social behaviours challenging behaviours or misconduct or personality disorders etc together where they can thrive and live less affect or infected by such behaviours in social housing is that really a bad thing or more cost effective to an individuals and happiness? And to the happiness in society as a whole?

If only all the nosey people where housed together?

If only all the violent people where housed together?

Anti social behavioured housed together?
Will society change?
What affect will that have on crime figures?
Will crime become more contrated therefore more easier to process and prosecute more effectively?
Will stalking behaviours become alot easier to recognise as people who intend to thrive live can be more easily indentifiable as peacefully going about their business are fully able to do so freeli because they are not living distrubed or infected affected by being forced to live with the effects of the effects of behaviour dis-ease from brain injury or damage of other people?

If you have ever read about the victims or survivors of being stalked it is commonly mentioned that the felt that authority never took theie complaints and thoughts seriously! Or that nothing can be done about the way the stalker was stalking

Where does it go wrong for Police and Prosecuting Authorities?

Do their personal experiences inhibit them as they deal with Stalkers professionally?

Does incest amongst siblings or parents have anything to do with how badly victims and survivors of a stalker is treated in law?

Is privilege  with a feeling of control responsible?

Or do the conditions keyworkers find themselves forced to live in affect their ability to deal with victims/survivors of stalkers effectively and fully?

Or is there a  crossover populations caught between housing what they have to do as job, an essential job and what that does to them personally  which somehow does not help within their relations to the public?

And last but not least when it comes to the plight of those targeted by stalkers whether they see themselves as survivors or victims does the forementioned "cross-over" population make getting stalking taking serial difficult?

Or is it person siffering or enjoying living with personality disorders sadism narcissism make it difficult for stalking to be taken serously?


 











Wednesday 9 September 2020

TUiD is in...The Evolving Greed


Coarse Work
Text Book Work
Unfinished Moments
She keeps getting to unfinished moments!
They all keep evolving around "unfinished" moments
Guilt keeps on calculating and meticulously planning 
1.Whilst innocence just keeps on enjoying a freedom of being? T or F?
Guilt keeps acting out and keeps a deliberate act up as per normal
Innocence just doesn't bother whilst embracing new experiences? T or F?

TUiD is playing Lecturer in Monologue Mode again...can we true or false the following? 
Or can we complicate it by believing there is more than one answer? 
We need to stop calling racism racism it is enabling it? 
So long as we all keep on talking from the middle up and not from the root neurological medical and clinical causes of racism it will continue to evolve and never be over?
It has become a mass of people stuck everywhere else but on the root cause?

How long have you heard people refer to the end of their relationship  coming down to being trading in for a younger version of themselves or just for a younger person?

Typical and popular responses have been to jump on the wrong end of the band wagon!

The onset of dementia can be one of the causes of a lot of wreckless behaviour including crime sprees and acting out in old age.

This is may finally be a way of realising the truth about the phenomenon of why some people through away years of a good partnership of marriage? T or F?

As Conversation...
"So you mean all those years we went on attacking older men and it weren't even about the younger woman or even the man for that matter they are sick? And  suffering from and possibly abused or abusing due to  dementia?

"Ah yeah! Not so cool after all trying to be an older player for the young especially when it turns out to be the epitome of old age anyway! How do you ever look cool trying pull that off as a young person as well?"

"Question is how do you heal the betrayal that goes on to become?"

"Is understanding dementia enough?"

To be checked against previously inserted link re: Dementia memory Alzheimer's courtesy of Amen Clinics

How many times has your heart been broken by untreated brain dis-ease and trauma which you initially thought was actually your lovers character? 

Remember this is unfinished moments....

Friday 4 September 2020

The Unknow iRate Detective is listening to supposed tales of love...Coarse Work...but is it love everlasting or not?

It is the clear up after the clean up
And we are still not there yet
But where were we supposed to be heading to anyway?

Not here....thats for sure!
She said... 
she hated him so much she could not leave
He was the most odious and pompus pussing with privilege to the point he came across as though ravished with poverty
He would not just accept all he was bestowed 
He would destroy it and then expect it to be instantly replaced to feed him again and again!
Coiled in a prison of need and need to leave she stayed 
So inherent was his wickedness toward her and the dis-ease within him
Her pain naturally developed within her into a sadistic pleasure 
As she numbed her own needs 
Captivated by what cruel wickedness his own dis-ease will produce next!

"Yeah....the pin heads often become convinced they could take over!" TUiD snips in

Bronzed up 
Cardboard waving
Salt and Pepper grains 
Everyone playing thinks they are acting as clued up
But whose sting are we all really in?
Left home thinking I was going to find love
But came to realise I was nothing more than an incest ridden freaj show
Left feeling like the unwanted goose and rouse for every corrupt cop and detective ever known?
Never a love
Just the left overs from the original curse!
"No more sliced ham...eh...sounds like the full ham followed by a sham!" Is TUiD's answer


TUiDs Questions
"Is it true that through LOVE you can see all the above? Hierachy? Authority? Superiority? All that is Good?" 
"Do delusions about true unconditional love cause everyone in the world to suffer?"

"If I have got this correct....did you know suffering from Alzhiemers can mean you do not pick up on sarcasm etc...how vulnerable and predisposed to ongoing attack and abuse can that make you in a relationship? Read the research and facts by following the links below courtesy of www.amenclinics.com below. This is not a promotion links are freely available on the web, thankfully!"

https://www.amenclinics.com/blog/10-early-alzheimers-symptoms-that-you-should-know/

https://www.amenclinics.com/blog/9-ways-to-know-if-youre-at-risk-for-dementia/



Text Book Work for Coarse contd
She hated him so much
His picture in a frame was too much for her to watch
She went on to create the very frame which his abuse could no longer contain by doing what?

Rich beyond all perception and intention what level of intimidation defammation and revenge could she subtly produce?


In Scene 3
Never a true affectionate moment between the pair
Yet they remained together year upon year
In one moment he was observed glancing elsewhere
But never was there ever to be an affair!
Another argument later his wickedness evilness could not help but compare
The ruin of life and the creation of years and hours of wasted time all committed just outside the remit of criminal law has never satiated or been stopped at all without remission to allow the one mentioned to lead a fully recovered life!

TUiD Monologues
It has always hurt me in life when the conclusion is; you let the abuser in....somehow you gave permission for all the negativity to happen to you.

Suppose you never had a clue such wickedness exist?

Oh...they say...that not knowing let the wickedness in!

Suppose you had no intention of falling in love?

You must have acted against your better judgement and that let his/her cruelty in...you should have left but you stayed and now it had turned into what it is!
What are the common misperceptions of spiritual awakening and a freedom of being?

$lav€ry or th£ right to b€ €mploy€d and r€turn hom€ and b€ l€ft to liv€ fr€€ly?

After all which has been said and done The Unknown iRate Detective still finds "files" missing!
With a "mark-up" on drugs the bitches and bastards turn up each and every fucking week uninvited as though slavery is still in fuck session!

Try as you may
There has had to have been a weakness in someone somewhere some fucking way!

We all know she wrote out her reports which only equated to information which went onto include skteches when she lived on the Peabody Estate in Strawberry Vale East Finchley under Barnet Council London N2 from 15/06/2009_14/10/2013 where the fuck are those files?

Who the fuck are reading those files?
Who the hell read those files?
Who still had even up until this year had each post box staked out waiting for her to post?

If you cannot earn yah money without being attacked what else is there?

Oh Look its Back I paid no one back yet everyone got paid how did i manage that....by pretending to play dead?

Or by being the one who covered up the ones who....?
So jealous was she
She went on to contemplate becoming a man just to out wit and continue her jealous abuse of the lady I only ever glanced at
But how did our supposed Love garner use so much support allowing us to lay blame and hate for so long?

Fed-lines
When a piece of art only visible to inside a private house barely visible to a secruity sparks a slew of variation on a theme of noses/faces who is to blame?  Hackers? 
Or spies?
What is it about art and the artist which makes people so possessive and greedy of them?

A little unknown Pimperella has been trying to make his name by stalking a little old black lady home to the back of East London convinced he can recreated a face mask of anyone she has ever known seen or slept with will succeed? Or will he have time to blindside authorities before he gets caught?

"Excuse me..but what is your name TUiD?"

"Hmmmmm.........well.....I rather like the name.....um.....Rivington Smythe!"

The  Unknown iRate Detectives monogoue continues
It has concerned me that more has not been said about what appeared to be a very small number of persons appearing as women appearing to attack other women by indicating it was time for them to have their boobs cut off?
My concern is do such apparent influencers really have any influence? worst yet are they able to gain entrance to any medical facilities hospitals-clinics-hospices etc?

In a case which has been open in the Uk and abroad dating back at least to 1904 maybe longer yet still before 1924?

But where within shall she feel love?

Shall she leave open the curses of the deluded who believe they can freely gain...from what she is creatively producing when "free enterprise" is neither her name or her game nor her aim!

Sat bold in the house of law
Promoted at a young age
A feminity of gain
To sick to see the honour
Instead went on to create rampag
Hallucinating their honoured positions away
Sad to see sad to say!


To Conveniently Choose!
What shall the term "stalked" mean to anyone really? Begin again and again and again because those that treated them with no care or no clue by some stroke of manipulation showed up in their homes and in their private rooms to make sure they were the only ones who will remain accused.

What must we really ask ourselves about so many who do not find the love they truly feel they deserve?

Is that really the question or a reprimand due to being on the receiving end of ongoing revenge?

To be Jealous is one thing
But it actually is not
To be jealous in front of the holy spirit in its or his or her or their work as mediums is one of the Ghosts most cruel yet poignant given lessons especially when in front of God lives are taken!
Then for when the heed comes no one checks or follows up with enough care if everybody is well enough for the truth and justice to be served on the inclinations known

But to be so jealous
Not just of one person
But for that dis-ease to reach the need to defile feminity to hate masculinity and cannot bare for anyone to be happy or free so help us Gods in these hours of confusion and need!
For the Spirit speaks yet we are still failing to see beyond what the ego plans to achieve

DO NOT IGNORE ME PLEASE IS THAT THE HOLY SPIRITS PLEA? 



 


















Monday 31 August 2020

Free

It's nice to see people be themselves
Not all tense and full of pretence Reciting lines forced by uncomfortable horrible circumstances of someone else Holding them hostage until they cannot tell or be their true selves
Its nice to see peoples eyes filled with love hope and vision
Eyes filled with honesty and with more than a promise for the future and the present moment
Love to see myself in all these things
Love see people as a able to thrive grow and prosper
Especially after a day if writing out the belly of what it is like to experience a stalker!
Just love to love life for what it is
Yes
Nothing or none is perfect
Which makes life even better when you can live and let live and just be free!
^
Natural Flowism
^
A Freedom of Being!
^
Amen!
^

Coarse Work: A lack of Support has alot of evidence the inability to support shows something completely different in...

...in the unchallenged rant!


You can attack me all you want but did you ask dangerous people to look after me?

How many years have you sat there gloating about all you asked was....?

Only to find nobody was competent enough to be kind why did you not ensure they were well enough?

May I ask to whom I am speaking?

Even in the strategy of politics and even more so members of the press of all places as if that is fair to say have all had to step up to see that a stalker is sent down!

The ability to be capable of the correct level of ability takes wellness. Someone incapacitated by injury and living with the trauma and challenges of circumstances of being stalked or seeing someone else fighting not to be destroyed byca stalker is difficult and renders many incapable of being able to establish a lending hand of support or even know how to perceive the correct of protection or defence. So easy to attack them without looking at the problem as being suffered as a life long event!

Coarse Work: of 1969 (don't know why I just felt to add that there just now 31/08/2020/12:55)

How many times can you write the following lines whilst making notes about what reality would like as a result of each repeated line?

Does she know yet?
Has he copped to it?
Does she know yet?
Has she copped to it?
Does she know yet?
Has he copped to it?
Go on keep writing it out and for the ones who know exactly who did this  DM @naturalflowism!
How many more years have we all got left of your ongoing persecution pretence and lies?
Because it ani't just me whose is being put through this so you can get over any idea it is how you are making me feel this is causing pain for everyone past and present?
^
All silence falls and gratitude befalls the wish to continue to express. Find away to say the ways and the truth will find its main stay....
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I can say nothing else and I mean not...I beg not...to prey on anyone especially as I have not asked permission but elude only to what has been widely reported and I have reposted in public. If a stalkers activity and antics are not stopped then the victim/the targeted/the survivor all equal in terms struggle to lead a free and safe life. 

Which statistic shows the true percentage of stalkers which just somehow let go and move on?

I needed to upgrade my mobile phone. I was used to going into a mobile store to find a good deal. It was anywhere between 2007-2009 and it just felt off! It was Oxford street and I could just feel what felt like a stalkers control. I went along with it and changed my phone but knew  I should have walked off. To this day and why I will remember that this day I don't know but it just felt like very careful manuovres until I actually found evidence of a burglar did I realise to my suprise my own look a like...maybe it had been them they had been trying to trap....so what the hell had been going on?


As I write I feel clear enough to tidy up the mess this becomes in my home!
I often return home 
Bogged downed and jostled  Jeered at for pointing out my home has had intruders
Unknown to me
Unless they be the neighbour who stalked kids now all grown up
They drive past me continually making signs of being elbowed
One drives by me with the largest short back and sides large afro 
Swiping the left hand from up to down 
I already know my work days of planned earnings have been cancelled!
I have no shame
None what so ever in admitting I have now become deeply disturbed and affected!
It now takes for me take moments to write this out
To be able to feel pyschology capable at home of maintaining a clean tidy but not yet anywhere near enough organized home
 to keep myself going!
I keep stocking up in the hope ill get everything started but the truth is I get hurt again and it all becomes a mess!

I cannot get a clear recognition of people who have changed over the years
 It takes me awhile to process by which time the evidence is no good again
They break in
Then it appears that makes them even more arrogant and determined to believe they are 100% in control of everything and cam behave guilt free as though I am to blame for they way in which they behave

Evidently observation time fills them with the belief they have gotten away with what they have committed....what gave them that idea?

Coarse Work: of the less amused...repeat to oneself!

Which is or is not vanity and I know nether question matches...and I write deliberately to mention things which will remove energy which has become static...to have a need to let someone know how good they are how much abuse is involved by those who feel they must let that person know?

What makes a person assume that a person does not already know how great thou art?

As I wrote 'of the less amused' i felt an energy release from around me...do not know why?

If I was to imagine my body as a string of meridians which unfold by information would that be true?
If so why would the mention of coins and the less amused free my energetic fold of static energy?
This is one mad blog
I know
Who would really sit write this amount shit who has a business to run...but for me this has gone on for so long...i cannot help feeling it is just best to show myself as I truly am in the face a stalker, dementia, alziehmers, or whatever percentage of a stalkers abtics that has now become related to terrorism to know wha unearth has gone......

Dear God
Dear Life
Dear Love 
Dear Freedom
So long as I can speak feel and see a truth in my life let me love beyond and above all evil eye slung. May my negativity not impact anyone please sit with me my God let you an me heal!
Even to say it is me who is without fault and lay myself out as the one who has fault. I have experienced those that misperceive that as a weakness and right of entitlement to abuse me further as though they are with responsibility to heal their ownselves they say among themselves "remember she always cusses herself"even though they are present and draining stalking on-lookers. Bragging and proclaiming they will never allow anyone to abuse them they way they are there abusing you! So spend the time and money to get to you?
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For the clearance this has been to me this day. I give thanks for freedom which allows me to pray this way.
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Dear God What more should I do or ask to be set free?

Even as free with freedom still on the...31/08/2020@09:40-09:43
At the sound of the thought = the class room is at the police station the sound of a revving helicopter stops!

Was it an illusionist telethapy or a limping school boys 50 year cling?

They hated
You end up criticizing
Because they hated
Such evil can be transferable until you think it is yours
Such is the nature of such jealous abuse
Though you want to you cannot trust them
There feels like no safe place to report
They have forced everyone into each line of hang man!
They stand out there jeering 
You are going to have to face us down again
They wait eagerly at supermarket and the housing for the day you cannot again afford your shopping and your rent
As if that did not happen becausr you were already rape and previously left for dead!
Happily sitting there cussing and interferring 
Cannot see themselves as proving the lack of support they are giving despite having means stop everything and allowing others to live free and happy again!
It just seems they would rather organise a clash than create a peaceful healthly solution
Positions among barbaric allegiances! 
Some will even attest to calling it love
The most deliberately cruel that is who carry along with them the inadvertantly cruel who daren't oppose them but advocate for their cruel control to be accepted!
They call it love
Then why do so many fight to be free of their own cruelty?
What can ever be gained from such unhappy unions and reunions?
What kind of terrors are they still going through or have they created to still need things to be like it was back in the day?
Enjoy this you fucking sadist
You made it 
In every neighbourhood and every street!
We were all hate
We were all raped
We were all told to keep to the church
Who taught us it was wrong?
No one!
It was eventually only if we could feel hate for it as it happened again in the school playgrounds did we begin to separate ourselves into a life where rape and hate and unwanted people could never again be entertained!
Thats what all this is about all over again
Think i do not know or feel your control over me?
Sitting writung when I should be up and about cleaning
Racism is it supposed to look like
Racism directed by a chauvinist?
Nobody sees it white girls walks infront miming 'go home' 'stay home you are too old' she looks as racist as fuck while the black guy walks behind looking innocent?
This all fits so well amongst the heads which cannot change they enjoy hearing about their antics all over again!
But this plan had come out of the art scene on the stairs since 2002 
Its still the same thing of these messages being passed through!
Its your fate
Its your fate
You must be made to accept your fate
But is really
Or is the hostages of years of no Love and Freedom trying to escape?
 

Sunday 30 August 2020

TUiD & A Peace Officer & The Escape!

SCRAPED PAINT


"Get the fuck back here and sort this out!" 
"What out?"
"The bit about the way you investigate not by last location but by diagnosis...i ask you what on earth where you thinking....you forget the line which said do both?"
"For fucks sake is that all this is about? You fucking shit me up you did you fuck twat!"
"So how many we got?"
"What do you mean?"
"How much in fighting is there?"
"Where?"
"Don't you dare jerk me around you know what I mean..how much of the rebellion is from inside..."
"Look...mate....i...can't...begin to explain what we've found has been going on!"
"Any chance of containing it?"
"Well we can't can we...look at what is spilling out..."
"Which means we've failed by context and where silence has been insisted?"
"Which means the full dynamic is not yet fully known?"
"Dynamic of who?"
"A very rich and dangerous paedophile who has gone around defending the right to pretend...trying to recreate families with strangers this is not just an illusionist this is dangerous"
"Has she continued to be stalked since she lived in the Kennington park? Someone shave and clean up their act but still clung to following her around because it seems like it doesn't....the ongoing screaming voices what is the motive apart from to pace up and down...because even I find it a bit weird that there has been a generation of neighbourhood problems especially when all you are doing most of the time is working or staying in house and the minute you go shopping they are still there to pounce and you gonna tell me its just by coincidence you happen to show ex amount years later in the area of another one of her addresses after she had already moved 2 time since...who exactly has this all been hiding..or who has always been steering because a stalker never just hits one person!"
"Its hard behind the lines. Especially if you are the only one in the family who has that job. But even worse if everyone is expected to fall in line behind you. There is somekind of professional 'mist' that falls in nothing else can remove the equation of them and us or retaliation of that...there has been a lack of care and understanding equally on both sides and i dare to say it needs adjusting and correcting. It needs courage to let go old stereotypes we have had of ourselves within the industry this is...and regarding what enforced secrecy does!"
"So face the fear it is then....every single last one of them?"
"Nah...better that every last one start from each and everyone that began each decision!"


Coarse Work: 
Whose escape is?
Who is the unidentified?

"Well its got to be down to the 'moving day' art scene hasn't it as being the longest influence..."
"What about inside connection?"
"Hmmmm....mmmm...i could be right and I could be wrong...."
"You'd be wrong!"
"So...who organised the perverted interferences then...she couldn't get a pukka minced beef and onion pie in her local supermarket where when she arrives there is just an obvious vibe of a set up but goes to a different branch of a supermarket and there are the pies"
"One supermarket was out of stock and the other wasn't ding bat for fucks sake....why is this still going on?"

OSTRICH AND THE MARKET
"So which end of the Kennington Park Estate did she live in?"
"Toward the Clayton Street and Bowling Green Street end...."
"So....hmmm...if I would be wrong about the secondary school then that only leaves primary school and nursery if even that applies the other explanation for being able to get away with such a high level of blatant possessive abuse is crimes of disturbing sadistic behaviour accepted as normal at a high level of the right of entitlement inside...."
"Hence the squelch of those who feel trapped by being forced to witness and support the 'fun' of those with possessive or even obsessive challenging behaviour or possessiveness or an obsessional personality disorders allowed to continue to operate behind the lines of a supposed professional standard which seems to be attacking this one person?"
"Its there again someone has been done wrong and this thing doesn't go away until all the culprits have stopped! It is the dwarf and the Giant effect....but how is it there is still a decent between two strangers?"
"Well it is quite obvious if someone show genuine care for oyhers enquires of their safety and that is met with jealously hatred and intention to cause chaos carnage and horror what other reference do you use not to be latched onto even further with the full blessing of all authority figures?"
"It is the only possibly likely culprit that would have gone on to poison the Peabody Estate in East Waterloo because she already knew that was where she was going to move despite not being told a thing!"
"Well....she was the only one who mentioned i!"
"Why would there be such a threat of silence toward her the authority behind all emergency or armed forces?"
"The fact remains that that '76 ford fiesta and the neighbours still was the one that followed on in 2005 august and after - class one the jeep neighbourhood was the first suspicion seen near Lewes - class two. Is it she never notice the their problem? Or was having achieved her goal her attention was no longer so fixed to a goal that her attention went on to become distracted?"
"Yes and No. I think she achieved that goal to help her resume her original goal! I think during the process of achieving that goal she began a journey of disassociating from her own ego identification but within that her brain was less engaged and less excercised and was headed straight to menopause and underlining all of that was bereavement at a time when the wickedness of others also emerged."
"Something had been performed on her....given what is happening there is a depth of jealously over the fact that she got through the test given the amount of wickedness which had been done to try and stop her back then."
"Yes i wonder if thay instructor witness the look of hatred or jealously from those two - at that crossing in the greenford area?"
"Shes challenged they would hate her because it has been common practice to use mobbing and not respect and fairness amoung those challenged by behaviour of a sadistic nature. It is not as easy as to blame the force it is the same anywhere else in society. The problem is where, when, and how to united safely in wider society and have that upheld and recognised at each level of the ability within health!"
"So what is going wrong alot of the time is those who know ill and wickedness is being deliberately carried out and quite frankly are beung held hostage by the true they can tell and the freedom that will allow others whose lives have been made ruin or difficult!"
"If nothing is impossible nothing is insoluable!"
"So...it must be a question of willingness then or resources and training?"
"Maybe not so big there are dictionary of behaviours are there and there likely outcomes....to have been able to stalk someone or commit crimes against others with same typical patterns known to only exist as a side effect among those being given so much authority and power then that may be the unravelling point because evidently it would much had been given to the few who couldn't process it correctly unfortunately. Which mean that of discernment and care has to be already there before day 1!"
"Everybody is going through it. Probably most common area is in your love life trying not to re-attract danger. When it comes to natural law which remains neutral in its attraction and your working or loving in a field where not alot of nice things happens at times or for long periods of time without a doubt that will affect your energy and vibration. If you are not aware of how to clean up that pathway of energy and vibration who and what do you think is going to be re-attracted to it?"
"So....that brings us perfectly back to why she has felt pumped squeezed and twisted with the energy of others hence all thw knockouts of being forced back or attempts to put her to sleep behind the wheel or slow her mind which constanly has to fight! Why the need to appear as her or hide the identity or clair audient voice of energy spirit or her attraction to mediumship?"
"Tesco's - Earlscourt area - think art piece showing the red head pouring water but think perioxide dread instead?"
Coarse Work: pt 2
At what age do kids in school learn learn word association?

Someone has always needed her to get the message - an 'associated' message - but why - can a specific behavioural need or disorder be linked to such a pattern of behaviour or need?

Will the hostages in this long running saga make good their escape?

Or will there be more of the same to keep the hostages entrained behind the antics of those who claim to be or act like they are off duty police or ex-police officers or other emergency or armed forces officials?
Will there eventually be a freedom from the family members friends and other community members who also abuse others under a misguided intention to keep their own version of law and disorder in order. Or will there be intentional cruelty to enforce the need to take sides over who and what?
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"Nobody is perfect in all of this why would they still be going for her attention? What about the burglars and all the other look a likes isn't it possible they are the ones abusing whilst she is getting the blame because no one can tell the difference?"
"Dare i ask....dare i say was poisoned botox part of a need to create a very similar identity?"
"Are we still at the delinquency?"
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Its been a night day and morning for that matter of difficult question we would like to close down. Close this off in the name of spiritual and pray for spiritual guides to lead us away from falsehood and harm and into the path of healing and the everlasting will of God. Amen!"
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