Monday, 29 August 2022

Invisible Bruises

I'm trying to be OK
About the hours that go by
Blood pressure levels teach me to rest
Whilst my mind wants to stay focused on my bucket list
It's OK to sit and rest
Trying to soothe away the silent invisible bruises
It can be hard to redirect all the challenging ideas in my imagination
Go, go flex I hate to admit it
Ny mind is just not in coordination with flexibility or even health and healing at the moment
What horrible tale has your mind come up with next?
No tale just a memory of around about the beginning of the millennium
When I did not realise I may have been threatened
The possible subtlety of the dictation of punishment themed on somebody
No one would guess there is a fantasy to over throw those with creativity
Someone wants to get them in
They begin forms of highly covert Intimidations before they really settle into formations
We made you our mascot in our heads
Match but don’t confess
Stratagem
So now
That is how they play their jest
People living their most ordinary best lives, are not left to be their best but are attacked by every attempt to pull them toward those with little resistance or defiance to living in subterfuge!
And again nobody appears to suspect
Because not everyone knows what everyone has said!

Thursday, 17 March 2022

Stalker With What?

The Firms Man's Got it Really Bad!
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Where the Freedom and Love at?
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She couldn't bare to lose them
Not her to him
Or
Him to her
Even though the two people had never really known each other except in her fear of losing control of herself!
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Toxic boundaries come first in this tale of a woman who turned everybody else’s life into her personal merch
As she and her gang stalked driving against the motorway central reservation, as they drive along looking up. I fall asleep and made it blatant!
Forearm to hand lifted in the air
Time and time again from yard to fuel station forecourt
Following closely behind
Stuck around my life
Forearm to hand lifted in the air
Thrown into a daze?
I fall into a fall sleep feeling again, and again, and again. 
Can barely stay awake at home.
No cups or cards done
But I have slept till tired year after year after
Cannot get enough of much done
Why after so many years of domestic abuse will it feel like no one would believe there is a stalker, an abuser, who will teach others to in general knock people out in the strangest of circumstances and have them seen as sleeping which is a convenience researched and created by someone who has remained stuck on cosy afternoon naps, unable to cope with the reality of the professional world.
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“Hear my world” is the child abusers stifled cry
A child abused who still abuses as that child!
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Wednesday, 16 March 2022

Oddments of Poetry Trying to detect Freedom and Love!

The Detection of Freedom and Love in...
Love Cruelty Fear Freedom 
A Blog of Alternative Personal Coarse Work!
Research Poetry Questionnaire (1)
What is love?
Safety in something you feel and say?
What isn’t love?
Danger in something you ball up as dangerous Energy projecting and impacting someone so violently distressing them because they don't feel the same way?
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Energy Exploration 
Alternative Coarse Work: No Need for Experimentation(it has already been done!) (2)
Energy can work in conjunction with a persons mind, perception, and physical health to crack wood, and create many other destructions, what are the myriad of disguises used on the unsuspecting?
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What are the Componenants of Feeling Freedom and Love 
[This is An Alternative  form of informal personal internal study](3)
What is the feeling of freedom and love?
What am I more likely to feel, or relate the feeling too if I could switch out what my mind went through during abuse?
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This is Alternative Course Work Research Poetry!(4)
No fear
Living inwardly and outwardly
Trust and the truth feeling and looking as good as fresh air and Fresh Clear Water tasty as a meal of Clear Water Fish 
Respect and enjoyment for the gift of healthy communication, and speech?
Respect for intention and intellect when used for the healing purposes, and for the good of all concerned?
Strength to live in complete and utter truth every moment of every millisecond, minute, hour, day, month, and year
The respect for the truthful ways of true construction, with absolutely no negative limitations
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Short Story Poetry(5)
Accuracy: 
Taken on as a wife nothing matched
8The alignment of words with actions without any other type of attachment
It was a marriage of the quite contrite!
He who had been a good wife
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Remote Evil Research Poetry(6)
Would you believe that such a thing can be devised?
Yet again I am here not scared to say utter over, and over again.
This not just about the smoking curses at M6 junction with the A34
This is about years of planning 
Years of need to devise anything and everything not to let go
Must Control
Must have Hold
Cab you do your job with your eyes closed?
Visions of a comparative test
Can we sit and watch from a far how our project upon thee will have your eyes rolling in the back of your as though your are Satan’s Cabbaged Whisky 
I love thee
You may think your mind screams
I love thee
But why the need for so much when in person the absolutely no feelings of care, neither feelings of Love
With too many coincidences and incidents of things gone wrong in the name of love for someone which only feels like live to the one who proclaims it
Feels like almost a life time of somebody else’s gang always coming out from remote crevices to check on how effective their evil deeds have become!
Rapes so Evil it clothed and closed the minds, and hearts of so many 
Why the harsh truths of the brutal abuse upon innocence hurts and closes  the minds of so many
Too painful a burden for anyone to care a lost generation stuck on let’s pretend make belief.
But for one who cannot afford to allow the escaped to be free and continually get a way due to their vacuous need for control...bruised a nation created a no love state then went hell for leather on remote control slinging  it all in as Energy bombs anything to divert attention from the mistakes that had been their perfect covers for years....beat in the head so much left to deal with as too high on drugs now trying to mess with legal ways as an adult with lower school mental age.
A person life’s story so cruel and so sad nobody dear touch them or clean a way the savages that follow them about everyday waiting for next mogul who they are convinced is about to pay out....this after stolen residencies, a whole families fortune. Now all the con merchants are tighter that shit on a stick?
Where is all the love and freedom in all of this?
Which sentences or bit of poetry conjures up the closes fit?
No answers on a postcard 

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@naturalflowismstudios
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